Archive for October, 2010

Seven Quick Takes

I’m actually posting Quick Takes today, as opposed to last week when I pulled out the Lazy Card and skipped.

Thank you for your words yesterday. I’d love to say that they helped, but they didn’t. It’s not that I’m too tired to write or don’t care. I want to… badly. It’s not because I feel pressured to put good content out there to keep readers, it’s because I ENJOY writing. Writing used to be my stress-relief, my happy time. But now I sit at the computer and… nothing. No matter how much I want to write something, I just can’t. But I’m coming to terms with this hormonal imbalance and realizing that my mind isn’t working properly. Once I can put it into words to myself and to my husband, I’ll put it into words to you. All I’ve got right now is that I am not me.

I have an exciting and eventful weekend planned. And the best news is that I think I’m going to be able to sleep in on Saturday morning!

Well maybe that’s not the best news. But it’s pretty high up there.

I hope everyone saw the beginning of The Office last night. HILARIOUS.

Oh my gracious. Jansen was so entertaining last night. He was smiling and doing this gasp-laugh thing. It was probably the cutest thing I have ever seen. I got the video camera out but, after taping 3-4 minutes of him staring at Stephen or my sister, I gave up.

If anyone is in the market for a new journal, you need to get one from my sister. She made me a super cute journal for an “I’m sorry you have to go to work” gift last week. I just wrote in it for the first time yesterday (it’s always so hard for me to put the first mark in a journal) and I love it. GO HERE to get to her shop, it’s the hard cover one that I’m in love with.

I get to meet a blog friend this weekend! I’ll tell you all about it next week, I’m sure I’ll have pictures.

October 29, 2010 at 7:30 am 3 comments

Not The Same

My blog has been disappointing me lately. Or more accurately, I have been disappointing my blog lately. Roots & Rings was my happy place for so long and then I got pregnant. Then it seemed like all I could write about was how tired I was or how giant my pillow was. I thought I’d slip out of my boring blogging funk once I had Jansen. (Riiiiight.) But now I’m more tired than I was before.

Here’s the problem. I don’t see anything anymore. I used to see things and turn them into stories. (If you are new to my blog as of about a year ago, then you don’t know this about me.) When I got pregnant, all I saw was my belly. And now? All I see is Jansen.

Now I’m not complaining. This is the season of my life when I’m going to be more tired than I ever imagined that I could be. This is also the season where absolutely nothing in my life can hold a candle to Jansen. Nothing is more important, nothing is funnier or cuter or more entertaining. Nothing. I have forgotten how to relate to the rest of the world.

This is frustrating to me. I used to love my blog. I loved sitting in front of my screen, trying to figure out a fun way to tell you about the boring details of my life. And it’s not that I don’t still have these experiences, and it’s not that I don’t cut out some time in my day to write about them… it’s just that my brain won’t let me develop them. Blog worthy things happen around me every single day but I have yet to remember how to write them down. So I have been sticking to showing you pictures of Jansen and telling you not-so-funny stories.

I’m annoyed. I’m frustrated. I’m sorry. And I’m ready for my creativity to sneak back into my life. But mostly, I’m thankful to those of you who have stuck around. Thank you for your emails and comments and support. One day I will get back to normal and all of my hormones will regulate and then maybe I’ll be able to put together my thoughts.

For now? You’re just going to have to be patient.

I used to say that the only way I could consistently come up with good stories is if I just forced myself to write. That may be my problem. I started giving myself outs. “Just show a picture today and then tomorrow you can mention this little fact.” And while I will be infinitely thankful that I kept up with my blog throughout my pregnancy (looking back is so fun!), I’m also disappointed that I didn’t use my situation for creative writing. Pregnancy is constant blog material, and I wasted it.

Be patient with me as I try to find my voice again. I need to figure out how to make this little site more entertaining and less all-in-your-face-baby-time. He’s cute, but there is a time and place for baby pictures… and I’m thinking that every single day may be too often.

October 28, 2010 at 7:17 am 16 comments


I am finally making the Jansensational page. One of these days I’ll get around to writing the birth story and showing you some of the cool things people made for Jansen. For now, enjoy. You will be able to find his weekly pictures by clicking that tab up there at the top.

Week 1

Week 2

Week 3

Week 5

Week 6

Week 7

He’s growing up so fast, it’s killing me. (Yes, I am aware that I missed week 4.) This was sort of one reason I was scared to have a baby… right after you have a little baby, they become a big baby. And then a bigger baby. And tomorrow he’s moving to Austin to start his first day at The University of Texas. Oh Heaven help me.

October 27, 2010 at 7:16 am 10 comments

Ten on Tuesday (51)

This group of questions comes from the comments section of a post last week. Thanks for your contributions! If you’d like to add more, I’ll use them for future ToTs.

1. What is your favorite decor item in your house?
Hmm. There is a painting of Stephen and I that I LOVE. But currently my favorite piece of decor is Jansen. That’s sort of all I look at.

2. What is your favorite hair product?
I don’t use many products. I would have to say that my favorite hair related item is a blow dryer. My hair looks weird without one.

3. Are you a good dancer?
Not even a little bit.

4. You get some good news, who’s the first person you call?
Stephen, definitely. Then my mom.

5. Would you rather take pictures, or be in pictures?
I don’t mind either way, just as long as there ARE pictures. I think everyone should be in some pictures or else you’ll regret it. Even if you think you look awful or hate your double chin or aren’t wearing makeup. You are you and there should be pictures of you.

6. What is your shoe style?
Comfortable. I don’t wear heels very often anymore because of my back problems. I pretty much live in my Sperrys, Reefs, and Croc flip flops. I work at an extremely casual company so I ne ver have to dress up more than that.

7. How often do you eat out?
Once a week maybe. Stephen and I rarely eat out if it’s just the two of us. I have several reasons for this: It’s expensive, the portions are too big, I can cook, I don’t like really loud places. But we’ll occasionally go to lunch or dinner with his parents and we often have lunch after church with mine.

8. If someone has food in their teeth, do you tell them?
It depends on who they are. I would tell my family and close friends but that’s probably it. I don’t like to embarrass people and, while it may be embarrassing that they have food in their teeth, it’s even more embarrassing that I have to point it out to them

9. Do you fold your underwear? 
Nope. I just have one drawer of lots of crumbled up undies.

10. Milk, dark, or white chocolate?
Usually dark. Occasionally milk. Rarely white.

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October 26, 2010 at 7:16 am 15 comments

“Mondays Can Die.”

Last Monday I received an email from Lauren. This isn’t uncommon. Our normal Monday subject title is “It’s Always Monday.” And it is, isn’t it?! Always! Everytime you freaking turn around, it’s Monday again. But last week’s email was different. Remember that was the worst Monday in the world since I had to go back. So her subject was “Mondays Can Die.” I appreciated it and I’m reliving that experience today.

I have a fantastic weekend. Jansen got baptized yesterday so we had tons of friends and family in town. I got to see so many people that I love. The only sad news is that my BFF Friend Forever, Lyndsey, is in town and I don’t get to hang out with her all day because I have to go to stupid work. Stupid work. So she gets to hang out with my mom and my cute baby all day while I’m sitting 5 feet from a mens’ restroom and catching up on 6 week’s work or work. Lame.

Here is some good news:

I actually posted ToT this weekend so if you’d like to participate, just click the ToT button on the right sidebar.

I fit into a size 6 maternity jeans. I haven’t fit into a size 6 since my freshman year in college, and I’m really not sure if this qualifies as “fitting into a size 6” since the waistline is a stretchy band. Regardless, it’s fun to look at the tag.

There is a tupperware full of baptism cake at my house. That’s good news if I’ve ever heard any.

My baby looks good in a tie.

October 25, 2010 at 7:30 am 7 comments

Seven Quick Takes

Just kidding. I’m taking another blog break. I spent my evening helping Dr. Looocy set up a website and now I’m going to cuddle my baby.

Thanks for your understanding. And if you don’t understand, I don’t really care. But I will try to make it up to you by showing you a cute picture of my baby boy!

October 22, 2010 at 7:25 am 9 comments


I could either blog or go to sleep.

Try to figure out which one I chose.

October 21, 2010 at 7:20 am 4 comments

Ten Things You Need To Know

1. Today marks the midpoint of one of the hardest week’s of my life. Thank you so much for all of your well wishes and prayers. It hasn’t been easy, but somehow I am managing to maintain my composure. I have yet to cry at work.

2. Stephen and I are officially cancelling cable. I know we mentioned that we were going to do it before, but we called and they made us a great offer so we kept it. But now we’re ready to make the break. We’ll probably eventually get Netflix but for now, it’s just network channels.

3. I’m giving up Biggest Loser for a season. Can you believe it? ME. I know. But I really didn’t like the first couple of episodes this season… I’m not good with change. So Stephen and I decided to turn Tuesdays in No TV Tuesdays. It’s all about chores. If we do chores one evening, we can relax the rest of the week.

4. I feel like I spend 80% of my day with one of my boobs out. For an extremely modest girl like me, this is odd.

5. Jansen went through 4 onesies yesterday. For some reason, he kept wanting to pee while we were changing his diaper and out wipey didn’t block the stream.

6. At one of my showers, a family friend gave me a card with coupons for house cleaning. Brilliant. She’s at my house today giving it a good scrub down and that makes me a happy camper!

7. I’m writing this on Tuesday night.. I’d like to place a bet right now that my son will not sleep tonight. He’s been asleep for a good three hours. I’d wake him up but Stephen and I are trying to get some stuff done and its sort of convenient to have him asleep.

8. On a related note, I probably had a pumpkin spice latte this morning.

9. On another related note, this morning will only mark my fourth pumpkin spice latte this season.

10. You should all leave a question in the comments so I can compile a set or two of Ten on Tuesday questions. I’d really appreciate it, my creative bone is broken.

October 20, 2010 at 7:15 am 15 comments

You Win Some, You Lose Some

I was anticipating a terrible day yesterday. I’d heard from many moms that the first day back to work is pure torture, so I was ready for an emotional day. Sunday I had a break down. I was sitting in the living room eating my chocolate chip pancakes when it all hit me. Woe is me, my life sucks.

Shockingly, I wasn’t a pool of tears. I cried a bit as I drove away from my mom’s house but I made myself pull it together. If I didn’t, I knew that everytime a coworker came to my office and asked me about Jansen, I’d fall apart. So I chose to ignore it. Just ignore the fact that my bun is fresh out of the oven and I’m sitting behind a desk for the rest of eternity. Ignore it all, or else I’m liable to go into some serious depression.

So let’s consider that a win for the day.

Now let’s discuss the loss.

Around 10:00 yesterday morning I went to the restroom at the office. It was at that time that I noticed that there is no plug in our bathroom. That put me in a bit of a pickle since my breast pump needs a plug. (I later found out that it came with a battery pack as well. I assume I took that out of the stylish tote since I was pumping from home and didn’t want to waste batteries.)

I had a decision to make. I could either go to Office Depot during my lunch break to buy an AC adaptor for the car so I could sit and pump in the car. Or I could not pump and watch my boobs slowly blow up to the size and firmness of watermelons… which may or may not have resulted in me squeezing them into a bottle for a bit of relief. I won’t tell you how I know that works.

I was already in a semi-pissed off state for reasons that I cannot get into on the blog, and I knew that boob engorgement would push me over the limit. When lunchtime came, I heated up my lunch and took it to my car for a field trip. I went to Office Depot to locate an adaptor. I walked into the store and headed to the aisle of cords and other things I don’t understand. I’m not very good with electronic type things, but I knew I was in the wrong spot. An Office Depot employee came to help me.

Office Depot Employee (ODE): Can I help you?
C: Yes. I need an AC adaptor thing.
ODE: Okay, right over here.
C: Of course I was in the wrong aisle. (Par for the course for my craptastic day.)
ODE: There are several to choose from. What do you need to plug in?
C: (Internal dilemma: Tell him the truth or lie?) Oh you know, a laptop or a portable DVD player. Just general things you might plug in.
ODE: Okay, well here we go. (He proceeds to show me the most expensive, fanciest version.)
C: What about the cheaper ones?
ODE: Oh yeah. You could get one of those. Here, this one is just fine.

I take my item to the check out and wait in a very long line. My new adaptor and I went out to the car to get to work. I drove the car around the parking lot to find the most secluded area, an area not surrounded by a billion cars or mobs of day laborers huddling around the Home Depot looking for work (and my boobs). If you know anything about breast pumps, you know that there are several parts. You have to put the cord on the pack, the tube on the pump, the cone on the tube, the bottle on the cone. It’s work. I got it all set up and OH LOOKIE THERE, the AC adaptor is actually a charger that doesn’t accept plugs. Fantastic.

I repackaged the product, drove back to Office Depot, parked, and walked back in. There were two lines open. One cashier was setting up a customer for a rewards card and had several people behind her, the other was slow as molasses. I was getting angry. It was 30 minutes into my lunch break, my food was getting cold, and I still needed to pump.

I got to the front of the line and made my return. I headed back to the aisle and found the real product I needed. And then guess what? Back to the check out line where I was stuck behind (I kid you not) a man who was taking the cashier’s order for fried catfish. Eventually it was my turn. I took the adaptor over to the printing area to see if they could cut the plastic open for me. You know those types of plastic that are so solid you can’t even bend them?? Yeah, it was in one of those. The lady got out her scissors and took one look at my item. “There is a pull tab here.” And with one pull, it was open. Nice.

Back to my car for round two. After a slight battle trying to shove the adaptor into the cigarette lighter thing, I almost had a break down. I was supposed to be in hysterics over my baby, instead I was about to throw an AC adaptor out of the window and drive over it 17 million times.

Eventually it worked out. I got it hooked up and hid under a burp rag. It wasn’t ideal, but it worked.

It was pretty much the most ridiculous hour of my life. All I know is that there must have been hundreds of people praying for me yesterday because that hour was enough to make me want to strangle myself with my breast pump tube. And I’m pretty sure that’s not the way you want to go!

October 19, 2010 at 7:30 am 17 comments

I’m Going Back To Work Today…

…and I don’t want to talk about it.

It’s depressing and I’m not happy about it. Today would be a really good day to say some prayers for my mental health. I really have no idea how I’m going to function all day without Jansen’s squeals and yawns and cuddles.

It’s a sad day.

Don’t get me wrong, he’ll be in good hands. He just won’t be in my hands.

(No ToT this week. I don’t have any questions from y’all and I’m in no state to come up with something entertaining.)

October 18, 2010 at 7:25 am 14 comments

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